Friday September 26th at 2.00 p.m.
Sascha spent the whole afternoon with Ralph studying in the school library. But his feelings for Ralph seemed to diminish a little. Throughout the whole afternoon, he felt nervous and had trouble concentrating on school matters. He had to remind himself not to stare at his classmate. A couple times Ralph touched him, and each time the touch ran through Sascha like an electric shock. When they finished their schoolwork, they both packed up their books. "Are you coming?" Ralph asked. "Denise and I and some friends are going to play some pool." Sascha said he would join them, but he was uncomfortable around Denise. Denise was Ralph's new girlfriend. Sascha knew that as Ralph and Denise got closer, his time with Ralph would lessen.
Friday September 26th at 6.00 p.m.
When Sascha came into his room, he threw his book bag in the corner angrily. He was angry with himself, angry because he felt jealous. He had no grounds for jealousy. Ralph was evidently straight and Sascha had no chance with him. Why shouldn't Ralph have a girlfriend? But the image of Ralph taking Denise in his arms, caressing and kissing her, was like a knife in Sascha's heart. Sascha lay on the bed and brooded. This situation could not go on. He could not spend his time thinking about someone who could not return his feelings. He had at last to get to know other gay boys. But that was easier said than done. He knew no one gay. He had heard that at the city beach, near a large parking lot, were some hidden restrooms. Someone had told him that old gay men chased and attacked all the boys who passed by. Two schoolmates from another class said they had been asked if they would like to earn a quick ten dollars. No. That was not for Sascha's taste. There had to be other places for gay boys who were about the same age to meet each other. But where?
Saturday, September 27th at 2.00 p.m.
"And when you enter an item in the Search program, it will list all the relevant documents it has found. O.K?" The aide in the Cybercafe returned to the back corner of the room to explain to another customer how a Chat program worked. Sascha had enough information already. Yesterday, he had thought of the Internet as a possible resource. At a friend's house, he saw how his friend could get all kinds of information over the Net. His friend was able to discover picture galleries that contained all kinds of pornography. Of course, his school friend has only searched for pictures of women. But Sascha thought that if the Net contained women's sexy pictures, it might also contain pictures of sexy men. So now, he was at the Cybercafe sitting in front of a computer and wanting to find out how to meet other young gay men. First, he typed the word "gay" into the search program. In a couple seconds, the results came onto the screen. Sascha could not believe his eyes--312,497 documents found. Wow! Could there be so many gay sources on the Net? Out of curiosity, Sascha clicked on one of the numerous Galleries of Men. What then appeared on the screen made him blush. He saw hundreds of erotic, sensual, and sexy good-looking men displaying themselves in the nude. Sascha sighed. Where were all these boys hiding? Could the gay life all be so gorgeous?

After a moment, the cyber aide returned to Sascha's booth. "Everything OK? Finding what you need?" Sascha turned red and instantly clicked on another program. He didn't want anyone thinking he was looking for pictures of naked men. But when the aide had gone, he chose an American database that did not offer pictures but a lot of thoughtful information. Sascha had been looking for addresses to gay meeting places in his town, but instead what he found in this database fascinated him even more.

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